January 1, 2012

Another boy texted me on New Year's Eve.
He is two years older than I and does not yet have the respect of my brother.
I don't blame him.
His text said, "I want to see you." around an hour before midnight. I asked him why and he said just because. (That isn't a good enough reason for me).
That was the extent of our conversing that night.
Background:
Over the summer my best friend Emily fell in love with an older boy. All of our friends were skeptical of this boy's intentions at first but then I grew to like him. And I liked Emily with him. They made each other happy. Hanging out with Emily and her boyfriend of course led to hanging out with some of her boyfriend's friends. One of his friends noticed me out of all of Emily's friends. I was flattered. So we started texting (He got my number from Emily). When he went back to college he continued to check up on me every now and then- to see how I was and to see what I was up to. This was nice. To have someone interested in me. But that's all it was- a boy who flattered me. Until Thanksgiving break came. He pursued me even more when he was back in town. Whenever I was with Emily (which would be almost every day) he would ask to hang out with us and Emily's boyfriend. So we did. It was fun. I told my brother about him because they are in the same grade and my brother immediately said to stay away from him,(as other people had told me also) that he was not someone I wanted to associate myself with. I headed my brother's warning but I decided that I would make that judgement call myself because I knew him better than my brother. Thanksgiving break ended just as quickly as it came and the last night he was in town he tried to kiss me. I didn't let him. I felt bad but I wasn't ready to start something with a boy that didn't live in the same city, let alone state, as I. So we left it at that. Until Christmas break. Which was only two weeks later. When he came back in town he asked me to go on a date with him. I respectfully declined and said I didn't think that would be a good idea. (At this point I was talking to my best friend again about being more than friends.) He didn't like my response and told me not to kick him to the curb until I knew what he had to offer. So I went on a date with him. It was fantastic. We ate dinner and went back to his house to watch a documentary he was telling me about. (We have a lot of common interests.) It wasn't awkward all night and when he dropped me off at my house he kissed me. A couple days later he asked me out again, and at this point my best friend and I decided that we should take our relationship to the next level and try being more than friends, so I declined a second date. He did not like this. I had nothing else to say to him, so I didn't.

I spent New Year's Day with my other best friend Reagan. (I have about 9 girls that I will truly call my best friends.) We went to a guy's house during the day and had a day party. Those are the most fun. It was about 10 boys, Reagan and I. I like it that way. No other girls. It's much less dramatic.